I feel this overwhelming sadness, like the summer of 2013 - when I was in 10th at my Nani's house, never before did I want to cry as hard and today in the summer of 2020 I feel the same. I don't know why, but every time when family hurts me, I feel such so much more, almost like depression - I guess I need to stop caring so much. A mix of emotions, sitting here at Dubai Design District my life feels this weird emptiness. I don't feel like going to work tomorrow, it's my first day and I already don't feel like it. I don't know where to go. I want to go home, but I don't want to stay there forever. I want to come back to Dubai but I don't want to stay here for ever either, god I don't know where to go, guide me please. Also I feel this weird laziness / drowsiness of some sort drawn into my body, like I need to sleep. Day 1 at work - The office is not as I thought it would be, and what I thought was - that they would all be one big family and I...