The Abditory Blog

It's been a week of celebrations, some nights longer than the usual, parties and celebrations with people get longer. It's been a month of reflections, somewhere between feeling lost and found, and I feel grounded again. I feel like I need to run before I can fly, I wonder when I'll be ready to leave the ground and spread these enormous wings that I carry over my shoulders right now.  With everything that is happening, I feel very nervous. I know I want to do great things and achieve great things, but right now I feel like a failure and I need someone to help me see more practically and clearly. If me today had to give advice to me from yesterday, who was lost and didn't know what she was going to do I would say that she didn't have to worry so much about choosing a career path, that life was going to take her exactly where she needed to be. That if she just believed in herself more, and put in some time and work in learning and doing things, she would reach the suc...

I have had quite a few crushes's over the last few years, and well I am not going to lie with each crush the butterflies become a bit lesser, but never the less still very existent.  Last evening I went to meet Maximus, now I would like to argue he is more of a friend than I would like him to be a partner because he might be a bit too dreamy for me.  However, he might very well be a reason that I got back to dreaming in my life and also just wanting so much more than just staying in a studio apartment in Dubai. I reconnected with him after our 3 months no-contact period, where I just messaged to ask how he was, I think he was just too needy at that point which is why he pushed to meet.  Quite a few conversations later, we ended up meeting at a movie with Rohan, quite a weird mix of people I'd say, however it was so different than I had always seen him to be. He was so caring, so dominant, so strong. You're right I am so wildly attracted, but not from my head, because in m...