The brave knight.

I have had quite a few crushes's over the last few years, and well I am not going to lie with each crush the butterflies become a bit lesser, but never the less still very existent. 

Last evening I went to meet Maximus, now I would like to argue he is more of a friend than I would like him to be a partner because he might be a bit too dreamy for me. 

However, he might very well be a reason that I got back to dreaming in my life and also just wanting so much more than just staying in a studio apartment in Dubai. I reconnected with him after our 3 months no-contact period, where I just messaged to ask how he was, I think he was just too needy at that point which is why he pushed to meet. 

Quite a few conversations later, we ended up meeting at a movie with Rohan, quite a weird mix of people I'd say, however it was so different than I had always seen him to be. He was so caring, so dominant, so strong. You're right I am so wildly attracted, but not from my head, because in my head I am still pretty sure he doesn't get me as excited as the others have, but there's just something about him. 

Yesterday, I went there, talking to him just as a friend, my usual ass self being extremely weird, and well I initially did not think anything is going to happen, we were just hanging out, and the dynamic between us has been quite different, the other boys end up making moves at me, Maximus never does, I think it comes because of his insecurity. So well, if there are no moves from his side, I am always so much more relaxed, being goofy and well just chilling like friends.   

And then, all of a sudden, when we were just about to go for a swim, I was like oh wow this is difficult, to untie my shoes, he had tied them really tightly when we went for a run, and he said in a very dominating voice "sit down, let me untie you" - at this point, I am dead. Like wait a minute, you want me to sit down and untie me. DO IT. 

So I sat there in the car, and I didn't know what to do, and there he was already with one of my legs in his hands, un-tying my shoes. Also a bit weird, but since I have had such an absent father, is it weird to say that another man caring for me like that, got me all in the feels for never having been done that by my dad. 

The night just kept getting juicier after this point. I started walking towards the beach and I was expressing my fear of the water creatures and how I was scared about the night water, something that I never expected, happened. He just took my hand, held it really tightly, and said it was going to be fine and he was going to be there. 

Okay, 2 questions. WHERE WAS THIS MAN BEFORE? and Uhm, Where was this man before? I held his hand tightly, after which I stripped into my bikini, and was ready to get into the water! A few minutes later, I noticed a couple black fishes moving, which freaked me out, and I started panicking. Maximus, on the other hand, was pretty much inside the water looking at this freak show. 

"Neha, stop it and just look at me, there's nothing, can you come to me"- I think I remember the words right, and well I started walking towards him, and as soon as I reached him, he gave me this extremely warm hug, I felt so so safe. I think we just hugged for the next 5 minutes, I was trying to feel as much as I could in the moment, the feeling of excitement, see the lights, feel the water, the temperature, his smell, his hands holding me, him breathing, my legs feeling his legs, the water swaying, me tightening my grip against him. We were just holding each other, really tight, I don't know if our breathing synced, because I was trying to just pause the moment. Just be there, every millisecond. 

We looked at each other, I hate to think that it wasn't love, that it wasn't with the man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but maybe not everyone can have that. Some just need to experience the souls of many beautiful people and feel the love with many, not sex, not physical stuff, just the love. 

We stared at each other, and we kissed, in the dark water, with little to no care about who was looking, and suddenly we were way further into the water. I opened my eyes, to look around, and it was beautiful. Dubai. 

I could taste quite a lot of salt water in my mouth, even made a joke about how salty he was haha, but his lips were so soft, and mine were there feeling his. He held me tighter, and I started biting into his neck slowly, his moans made me feel so turned on. He slowly pulled on my bikini and tried to slip his fingers under it, I could feel every single thing, he was so hard, and that turned me on. 

He caught me and pushed and pulled me slower, making sure he could feel me, and I tried to manage my rhythm with his, while still feeling the slightly warm water, and then a jellyfish bit him. 

You know what I want to remember most about this evening, his courage. He said " If I don't go back in there, I am going to always be scared, and he took his towel, wrapped it around me, and went back in swimming deeper than we were" 

I love that about him, his bravery.

He drove me back to my house, and I didn't want to go to his either for some reason, and I hugged him tight and kissed him good night as if I was never going to see him again. You never know with Maximus, I thought in my head. 

One day he wants to see me, the next he'll be gone with another. So even though I was sad to leave, I knew I wanted to get back home. 

It was beautiful though, the brave knight and the adventurer. 

Our little story.