The Abditory Blog

Am I too afraid of things that I forget to live? Well, I like the office lifestyle, it's not too bad, I like working on strategies, and marketing ideas. Today I found out one of my college mates passed away in a car accident. She was 25.  I wonder right now sitting in this office, did she get to do the things that she loved? I have been waiting to reach financial independence for a while now, and now that I reached it, I am too scared to get out there and for stuff because I have become too comfortable. I have been sitting scared for my life.  I met Bastien - this french entrepreneur, I don't agree with a lot of the things he is doing, but something I agree with his philosophy of living life, that we can die at any point and are we really doing the things we love?  I value this life. I really do, and I would be haunting earth if I didn't do the stuff I really loved.  Read this please whenever you feel like you don't know what you are doing -  I am moving forward...

I don't want to get into too many stories, but I do want to say, for the brief amount of time I had met this guy, I thought I was in a dream. Got the right values, the right attitude, the money, the ambition, the looks, the country, the focus, this is exactly the type of guy I wanted to date.  Also a hopeless romantic, loved the online letters and getting stuck in the desert with him. I want to write this little blog on him because there were a lot of takeaways, well yes it obviously didn't work out.  It was very interesting to meet this person because he was one of those rich people I have always wanted to find out things about. By the time he was just 14 he had already learned to get into eh dark web, and by the time he is 25 he has already a ton of crypto and is involved in much bigger projects.  Thinking about it I really have much less exposure to the world out there, because honestly I just got to know about the dark web like 2 months ago. Say what? I didn't even kn...

Surreal to think I am not around anymore isn't it. Actually how much ever that's true

 Nothing seems to be working out, I am very sad. I feel so pressurized. I find a direction for 1 week and then all of a sudden I lose direction again - and I feel because nothing is working out it just feels like I am going nowhere.  29th Sep  No one is going to remember the process when you reach the top. Dw I can adapt, I can change.  Why do I suddenly get demotivated?  5th October  The big change is going to come, and I am ready to embrace it. My life will be completely different in the best way possible in the coming few years, and I can feel it coming, the things I dream of are going to happen. Small failures will come, but with good big happy news on the sides.  I am READY to be out there and successful.  I am READY for growth, for learning more, and for giving more.  My time is here.  I feel it.