The Abditory Blog

How weird is life? I have always wondered. The only true fact about life is death, and yet everyone is scared to suffer and to die.

Traveling back from a tiring day at work, my mind still felt hungry for some more knowledge. As I transcended into the world of the mind (My book - being ‘How your mind works’) the outer world seemed too involved running the rat race to notice anything but tiredness and stress from a busy day. Beep, beep, beeep.... one after another people kept punching in their NOL cards. The chapter that I was visually present in, a lot different. It spoke about the small adventures one has and the little moments we treasure. The impromptu meetups and the last-minute decisions. Every bit of my heartfelt content reading such a good few pages. 10 minutes were over and my heat pack well heated now rests behind my back as I continue writing this. This weekend has quite the schedule. Being lazy after a tiring day, I dozed and woke up hungry craving some waffles and falafel, the same things that were very well laid out at our breakfast gathering this morning. My tired legs and drowsy eyes didn’t hes...

My thoughts are so cluttered, with a lot of things and a lot of different analysis going on. From the past few months, I don't know what I have been feeling, it's like I forgot how to feel. It's like I am just living. On my trip to Rishikesh, I was just living. In my days here I laugh, sometimes even a lot, I feel overwhelmed with all the love that I receive from people. Some days are just sad, I have been wanting to be alone a lot lately, in the recent few months, I have spoken to more people on the phone than I connected with over here. I repeat the same stories to 10 different people, explaining to them how I feel when in reality I don't even know how I feel. My hair is thinning, my mood is becoming more unstable. I have been wanting to write for a while, and I keep postponing that as well. However when it comes to a point where I need to feel - I am more numb than anything, happiness just an outer shell, sadness, and outer shell and the overwhelming feeling too...

My journey -   Part 1   While I sat panicking in my office one evening before I was about to begin my trip, all I could think of was the amount of work I needed to complete and if I had forgotten about something that I shouldn’t. The constant chatter of my thoughts kept me a lot in the moment and fast aslee p in the air plane. I reached Delhi at the dawn of early sunrise. As I stepped out of the airport - the cold fresh air made me feel alive, and the pollution kept me in reality. So lets begin. The India Adventure 2.0. 14th Feb 2020, location Delhi - sector 110A, 14 degrees, Meghna’s house. Aarti’s, old Hindi music and dhinchak Bollywood in the cab, was the perfect welcome in India! I loved it. As I got out of bed I felt the chilly Delhi winter. I quickly forced myself to get out of bed and leave for my journey ahead.  I reached the Lotus Temple after a hectic metro ride, and a long waited short auto journey. It felt like I had been invited by god to visit...