Impossible to erase or forget. There's a pattern here, a deeper one, as I read more, understand more, I come to face what's been the case always. I have been reading about what love is, psychologically, neurologically and what I come to realize is, it's a bonding chemical that's released when we're exposed to it. I want to believe that I like adlers theory better than freud, but lately with all the experiences I am having, I am believing what a significant impact bonding and psychological symptoms can have in our lives. I grew up not getting love and attention from either of my parents, at least in my perceived opinion, of what I expected, in 6th grade, I fell madly in love with a boy, a cousins friend, I would think of him to be my future partner, everything revolved around him, I lived a city apart from him, and would only meet him during the holidays, I wanted to know everything about him, his house, his life, his siblings, what he loved, some would say I was c...