When I moved to Dubai - it was the starting of a new phase in my life, the part where I adult, learn to adjust, be inspired about spirituality, connect more with my family. This one year of my life has been better than a dream. I got the best job, I live very comfortably.
Dubai has a lot of good things - it's got the best of places, the most modern architecture, the blue skies and sun and it's very close to home ( now is home ) It's got water everywhere and the washrooms are very well maintained - had to add that in here. When everyone told me - what a hot place it is, I knew they would be exaggerating and turns out they were. I always wait to experience a place for myself before I decide if I could be comfortable here or not.
I am a person that loves looking forward to the next phase of her life, when in my last year of college - I sat from September to January looking for jobs abroad, so after college I could get into one. While everyone else was looking to finally finish college - I couldn't wait to be done and move on with my next phase. I wait for these phases so deeply because they seem to be so exciting and maybe every now and then I like the change.
I have been in 3 phases of my life until now - the one where I go to college, the one where I find a job and the one where I move to another country. Dubai has been fabulous - when I first entered the country I knew I wanted to leave in 2 years, I set this time line for myself because I didn't want to become too comfortable, because comfort restricts growth and you only realize that after a while.
As I sit here writing this I have tears in my eyes, these emotions are so unexplainable as I already miss everybody even though I am here. How did I become so lucky to find such beautiful souls. Each one with their own silver lining. All I can feel is deep love for each and everyone.
This time in my life right now, is the better than my wildest dreams, in this moment I feel so satisfied with life that if god asked me for my soul I would give it away very happily. I must have done something very good to deserve this, the irony of life is that up until last year before I came here - I have criticized life at every step, not a single day went by where I thought I wish I was someone else, what did I do to get that life, where everyone always showed me sympathy, and hated me for who I was, thought I was undeserving of any love, who were those people to decide what I were to get, yet they wrote on my hands with their sharp ink pen's made from words.
I had a family, but what a family where I was put down with every step I took, held tighter with every breath I breathed, I felt suffocated. I had friends, but who showed me their true sides, with their knives in my back, where I was put in front of the stage with all the spotlights on me, I felt naked when everyone laughed and told their stories about me. I had a dad, but who never became a father, who had a problem with everything I did, who never showed me how to ride a cycle or how to play a game of chess, who always kept fighting with me as if I was the demon god had sent in his life.
I had a mother, but who always felt that there was something missing in me, who always thought I was not good enough, who didn't care much to see if I was late from school.
To think of it, I really do thank god to give me a new life, giving me a new set of parents to guide me, protect me, make of a shining lamp and a brilliant star. Who encourage me with every step, who appreciate me with every breath, who love me unconditionally, who care for me as if I were their own. Do miracles happen on earth, they do. I am an example right here.
My entire life I owe to these souls who uplift me into the person I am today. I thank god for giving me such encouraging and loving friends - it's almost like I finally found my crazy here. I can't imagine what would I do without them, they are my beautiful dragons, and they teach me how to fight, choose my battles and fly every single day. "Ana bidi ayesh wa tiyir fo al sama" - it means I want to live and fly in the sky, I learnt that here.
Yet after all this, one would ask how and why neha are you then deciding to leave this heaven? Truthfully I am scared, it's a very strong voice in my conscious that says it. Sometimes I don't even know what's the hurry, sometimes I think to myself - so what, let me just stay here for another year, but it's more like I am losing the purpose of my life.
Have you ever been so comfortable you want to leave?
Dubai has a lot of good things - it's got the best of places, the most modern architecture, the blue skies and sun and it's very close to home ( now is home ) It's got water everywhere and the washrooms are very well maintained - had to add that in here. When everyone told me - what a hot place it is, I knew they would be exaggerating and turns out they were. I always wait to experience a place for myself before I decide if I could be comfortable here or not.
I am a person that loves looking forward to the next phase of her life, when in my last year of college - I sat from September to January looking for jobs abroad, so after college I could get into one. While everyone else was looking to finally finish college - I couldn't wait to be done and move on with my next phase. I wait for these phases so deeply because they seem to be so exciting and maybe every now and then I like the change.
I have been in 3 phases of my life until now - the one where I go to college, the one where I find a job and the one where I move to another country. Dubai has been fabulous - when I first entered the country I knew I wanted to leave in 2 years, I set this time line for myself because I didn't want to become too comfortable, because comfort restricts growth and you only realize that after a while.
As I sit here writing this I have tears in my eyes, these emotions are so unexplainable as I already miss everybody even though I am here. How did I become so lucky to find such beautiful souls. Each one with their own silver lining. All I can feel is deep love for each and everyone.
This time in my life right now, is the better than my wildest dreams, in this moment I feel so satisfied with life that if god asked me for my soul I would give it away very happily. I must have done something very good to deserve this, the irony of life is that up until last year before I came here - I have criticized life at every step, not a single day went by where I thought I wish I was someone else, what did I do to get that life, where everyone always showed me sympathy, and hated me for who I was, thought I was undeserving of any love, who were those people to decide what I were to get, yet they wrote on my hands with their sharp ink pen's made from words.
I had a family, but what a family where I was put down with every step I took, held tighter with every breath I breathed, I felt suffocated. I had friends, but who showed me their true sides, with their knives in my back, where I was put in front of the stage with all the spotlights on me, I felt naked when everyone laughed and told their stories about me. I had a dad, but who never became a father, who had a problem with everything I did, who never showed me how to ride a cycle or how to play a game of chess, who always kept fighting with me as if I was the demon god had sent in his life.
I had a mother, but who always felt that there was something missing in me, who always thought I was not good enough, who didn't care much to see if I was late from school.
To think of it, I really do thank god to give me a new life, giving me a new set of parents to guide me, protect me, make of a shining lamp and a brilliant star. Who encourage me with every step, who appreciate me with every breath, who love me unconditionally, who care for me as if I were their own. Do miracles happen on earth, they do. I am an example right here.
My entire life I owe to these souls who uplift me into the person I am today. I thank god for giving me such encouraging and loving friends - it's almost like I finally found my crazy here. I can't imagine what would I do without them, they are my beautiful dragons, and they teach me how to fight, choose my battles and fly every single day. "Ana bidi ayesh wa tiyir fo al sama" - it means I want to live and fly in the sky, I learnt that here.
Yet after all this, one would ask how and why neha are you then deciding to leave this heaven? Truthfully I am scared, it's a very strong voice in my conscious that says it. Sometimes I don't even know what's the hurry, sometimes I think to myself - so what, let me just stay here for another year, but it's more like I am losing the purpose of my life.
Have you ever been so comfortable you want to leave?
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