2 months and maybe a few more days. It was over with one call. When I asked him - what do you want to do further - all he could say was "I don't know". Am I that trash, that you don't even know what to do with me. I thought to myself.
I went and looked at myself in the mirror and I thought - wait a minute, look at me - let me tell you I am not the most beautiful person in the world - but when I do see myself in the mirror, I love myself and I asked myself do I deserve this. The answer was no.
I did not hesitate to leave behind that person who I thought was made for me. Yes looking back now, I wish he really had said something else. I wish he would put in a little effort, unfortunately he was the same like Joanna - he was a boy, under his parents who loved his life a little too much to be bothered about me, in simple words - there was no space in his life for me.
I do not have hatred for him, nobody has that much power in my life. I still have love in my heart and it won't ever stop. However I do hope he find's somebody better because I will never go back there. I don't wish to, not to a person who does not value someone who they claim to be loving.
Today, it's been 10 days - I have thought about him so much, pitying myself as to why doesn't he love me the same way I do - the answer is I have a lot more to learn from life, maybe he wasn't the one god wanted me to be with - or he would have tried, put in effort when he saw me leaving. People would do anything for their love, I would - the simple fact that he can't - show's that I am on the right track and I made the right decision.
Today - I still need to find myself. Work on myself to be a better person, do something of myself and settle for nothing lesser. I live with my family in Dubai. The past few days have been the best, I have such loving colleagues - they care about me, they listen to me - give me so much attention, I love them. I have such a loving family - every thing is all perfect in my life. From my financial status, to my family, to my work and to myself. I am in my dream life and it can't get more perfect than this.
There sure are things that I can crib, cry and rant about, I choose not to anymore.
Dubai has been home to me since day 1. I love it, it's given me the best of people, places, times, family, friends and respect. When I was little every time I would look at the mirror in my worst times and tell myself "one day I ll be in such a good place everyone will want to have my life". I am in that moment in my life. I am cherishing each and every moment here and honestly do not have the time to waste on unwanted distractions.
The fact that this relationship did not work is a sign for me to work on myself - it means I still need to face more challenges and battles and work towards the best version. I still look at the mirror and say to myself - that "one day I ll own businesses and live the best quality of life that there is".
To everyone I love.
I went and looked at myself in the mirror and I thought - wait a minute, look at me - let me tell you I am not the most beautiful person in the world - but when I do see myself in the mirror, I love myself and I asked myself do I deserve this. The answer was no.
I did not hesitate to leave behind that person who I thought was made for me. Yes looking back now, I wish he really had said something else. I wish he would put in a little effort, unfortunately he was the same like Joanna - he was a boy, under his parents who loved his life a little too much to be bothered about me, in simple words - there was no space in his life for me.
I do not have hatred for him, nobody has that much power in my life. I still have love in my heart and it won't ever stop. However I do hope he find's somebody better because I will never go back there. I don't wish to, not to a person who does not value someone who they claim to be loving.
Today, it's been 10 days - I have thought about him so much, pitying myself as to why doesn't he love me the same way I do - the answer is I have a lot more to learn from life, maybe he wasn't the one god wanted me to be with - or he would have tried, put in effort when he saw me leaving. People would do anything for their love, I would - the simple fact that he can't - show's that I am on the right track and I made the right decision.
Today - I still need to find myself. Work on myself to be a better person, do something of myself and settle for nothing lesser. I live with my family in Dubai. The past few days have been the best, I have such loving colleagues - they care about me, they listen to me - give me so much attention, I love them. I have such a loving family - every thing is all perfect in my life. From my financial status, to my family, to my work and to myself. I am in my dream life and it can't get more perfect than this.
There sure are things that I can crib, cry and rant about, I choose not to anymore.
Dubai has been home to me since day 1. I love it, it's given me the best of people, places, times, family, friends and respect. When I was little every time I would look at the mirror in my worst times and tell myself "one day I ll be in such a good place everyone will want to have my life". I am in that moment in my life. I am cherishing each and every moment here and honestly do not have the time to waste on unwanted distractions.
The fact that this relationship did not work is a sign for me to work on myself - it means I still need to face more challenges and battles and work towards the best version. I still look at the mirror and say to myself - that "one day I ll own businesses and live the best quality of life that there is".
To everyone I love.
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