For over 6 months now I had been confused, just like always. The epiphany of life happens in rather miraculous ways. Let me rewind this story to September 25th 2018 - A young 19-year-old, looking for a job with a dream in mind and a purpose in her head and a soulful in Dubai. A country she never imagined coming to, a place she never chose. Destiny had something else in mind for her.
Everything seemed fast - time, effort, struggle, new learnings. Bahai Faith, the faith of this new world. I was introduced to this faith by my dear guide and a motherly figure who I lovingly call guddi bhabhi. Time flies, it only felt like yesterday that I had a conversation with her about life and it's incompleteness in every sense, it had been 4 years actually.
The orphic way of life quite stuns me. How destiny works, and how we play such an important role in this way of life. God brought me back to Dubai, closer to who I now call my second parents. It's a beautiful journey. I have been searching for my purpose for some time now.
I define purpose in a rather different way - We don't choose our purpose, it chooses us. It is different than what we believe it to be and think we need to do. It's different from the goals we have set in life and the things we need to achieve. I am going to let my purpose find me.
A multitasker and a work-a-holic, this is who I define myself as. The journey of me reaching where I have has been quite a task. It's weird how life functions, but it's the weirdness that makes it life. Today as I sit writing on my cosy bed, in the room from Dune centre, working in a reputed organization with brilliant people, I realize the answer to all my questions.
God gave me satisfaction.
For the past couple of months, I have been looking for something more to do, than just my job, something that keep's me motivated, keeps me running. I firmly believe, God gives each of us time with certain people, you need to know how to use that time super effectively. As I sat thinking the last couple of days as to what more can I do, and kept questioning God. Today I received my answer. God brought me here for a purpose. I have been given this good job and this leisure for a purpose. He has given me this satisfaction, this sense of contentment and achievement with a little tinge of incompleteness for a purpose.
The purpose being - me spending my precious time for him with him and to be closely connected to him through his connectors - Guddi & Gautu. I have come to learn - so much more than I can imagine. This period in my life I call the preparation period. I am being prepared for something that is to come in my life, or something I need to do in my life. I have been having visions while meditating. I see my mother in heaven - I have two on planet earth already. It's completely illogical when I say this, however, while meditating I see different planets, the universe, and space. I sleep on someone's lap who I call maa. She isn't from this planet - she seems like God. Maybe in the depth's of my mind I envision this to be my life in reality.
I firmly believe we have all the answers to what we are looking for, we just need to dig deeper into our conscious. I also believe that we have the power to manifest things that we want, so choose your words wisely.
I am going to start spending more time, reading, praying and interacting with my second parents. It is important and vital for me to do so. I can feel it, I have only less time left now. I need to utilize it wisely and to the fullest.
Thank you, God, for answering my questions like always.
What is your purpose in life, rather, has your purpose found you yet?
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